Sorry to ruin your story, but, I have been in this for well over a decade too. I am in the negative as well but I am not crying about it.

I made my decisions to buy, made my decision to hold.

Not happy with management at all but I am not whining about it here every day.

I will hold til they succeed or fail.

Don't expect anyone to have empathy for me either.

Suck it up buttercup.