"I'm not sure if I'm "rich" but I'm definitely not spoiled in anyone's view who knows me"

I believe you,  it's just sometimes actions/words may come across differently to each of us. I've always enjoyed your posts , even some of the ones of frustration & bitterness. I don't believe I was as close to the inner circle as you but close enough IMO & I share most all of your feelings. When I post the "frustration" type  posts it's more me screaming at myself - feelings of betrayal, being mislead etc etc. More upset with myself than others in the so called "know" I bit & was bitten back as hard as I've every been bitten in any play.It does me no good tho to keep being upset with my choices - I've finally accepted them & now trying to move forward as best I know how.