Welcome back Fluffy.

I sincerly hope that your fishing vacation brought some relief and you are not that stressed and anxious anymore;

According to these studies this might be the reason for your 3rd person self talk.

TLDR: people speaking in 3rd person of themselves to lower anxiety,stress

http://selfcontrol.psych.lsa.umich.edu/wp-content/uploads/2014/01/KrossJ_Pers_Soc_Psychol2014Self-talk_as_a_regulatory_mechanism_How_you_do_it_matters.pdf

https://www.thestar.com/life/2014/02/04/talking_in_the_third_person_lowers_anxiety_study.html

Here´s another Graphite play FWIW ...

FMS.V

http://agoracom.com/ir/Focusgraphite